It's true when Rin leaves the pool, he stepped away from Haru and the energy they shared got transferred elsewhere. It wasn't even a conscious thing for Rin because to his mind he was still there even though in realistic terms the connection is entirely diverted. If he thought about it closely he'd probably be able to come up with an excuse to do with needing to be the rival team Iwatobi deserved and without envisioning himself as part of the team--part of Haru's team. But even if he were at that point of self-awareness, Rin would only be able to hold that excuse for so long. He'd process himself out of it, realise that such a clean-cut divide between rival team and friend doesn't need to exist, and certainly not to such an exclusionary level.
Rin doesn't see the extent to which turning away from Haru and orientating himself toward something else--the Samezuka team and Sousuke's serious attitudes around professional swimming--actively takes him away form Haru and from the connections they had woven back together so desperately and shakily a year earlier. In short, he doesn't see how when he pulls himself out the pool and immediately, unwaveringly, turns toward his team he made a gesture of closing a door on the light Haru provided him.
In time, he'll see all this and how poorly he's treated the relationship he and Haru share, but right now he's confused and starting to feel his patience being chipped away at as his eyebrows furrow as he frowns at the other boy in the hallway. They feel like strangers and it causes Rin a kind of discomfort he's not felt for quite sometime. Now more than before though the stakes and pressure around his and Haru's missed connections feels far more pressing to Rin.
"Don't want to--? Haru, you haven't said anything!"
He can at least recognise that much as he takes a step forward, but the approach is still all wrong.
"You haven't spoken to anyone and you're acting like all you've done is talk about this. You haven't! No-one knows what you're thinking because you don't say anything! Makoto can say whatever he wants, but if you're not actually talking to anyone people just have to guess what you're thinking! That's what's happening right now!"
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Rin doesn't see the extent to which turning away from Haru and orientating himself toward something else--the Samezuka team and Sousuke's serious attitudes around professional swimming--actively takes him away form Haru and from the connections they had woven back together so desperately and shakily a year earlier. In short, he doesn't see how when he pulls himself out the pool and immediately, unwaveringly, turns toward his team he made a gesture of closing a door on the light Haru provided him.
In time, he'll see all this and how poorly he's treated the relationship he and Haru share, but right now he's confused and starting to feel his patience being chipped away at as his eyebrows furrow as he frowns at the other boy in the hallway. They feel like strangers and it causes Rin a kind of discomfort he's not felt for quite sometime. Now more than before though the stakes and pressure around his and Haru's missed connections feels far more pressing to Rin.
"Don't want to--? Haru, you haven't said anything!"
He can at least recognise that much as he takes a step forward, but the approach is still all wrong.
"You haven't spoken to anyone and you're acting like all you've done is talk about this. You haven't! No-one knows what you're thinking because you don't say anything! Makoto can say whatever he wants, but if you're not actually talking to anyone people just have to guess what you're thinking! That's what's happening right now!"